Still Hating My Thoughtfullness
I swear to God I hate the person that I am.
What is wrong with me that I can't...CAN NOT just be selfish and not give a damn about someone else. I go out of my way for people I don't even like! What is wrong with me?
it's not that I seek their approval, if that's what you're thinking. If you knew me you would know that the only person's approval I ever seek is that of my inner circle...mostly just my own and my dad's.
but for some reason I work hard at making others happy......
WHY!!!!!????
They don't give a shit about me!!!
I have to give a gift to someone....someone that will ask me what I would like for Christmas, then be too busy to get me anything I requested. She will put zero thought in to my gift.....See # 14 in the life lessons category....she's the one that picks you up crap at the drug store on her way to the party. So I decided...eh...I'm giving her something completely random that means nothing. It'll be nice and she'll like it, but it won't be special. it will be a run of the mill gift....one of 7 I bought for random gift giving.
Then like a complete ass wipe I saw something in a magazine that I thought she would love. I declared however, screw her, I will not get it. No way. I will put as much effort in as she does.
The shipped it yesterday.
I SUCK!
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