I decided the other day that if it were not for the whole hunger and no showering thing, I could totally win Survivor!

I seem to live everyday of my life inside a very suburban version of the game.  In hind sight, I think I always have.

I'm very proud to say that I have never belong to any one "click."  I was never a jock, a geek, a burn out...I was just Michelle.  No labels.  What I did do however was hover on the outskirts of several groups...included in many areas and I was made a part of many diverse things.

I see myself still doing this today.  Everywhere we look, life is divided into groups...clicks.  At work, at the stable...even on social networking groups on line.  Every one still wants to be a part of the in crowd, and everyone still thinks they are the in crowd.

Honestly I have always been invited in and welcomed into the 'in' crowd with open arms.  I accept.  But I stand on the outskirts and just peer inside the huddle.  I listen and add little bits here and there but am always very careful that it is nothing to damaging to my own character or to the characters of others I consider my friends. 

I then find my self surrounded by what I like to call the righteous ones.  These are the ones with good morals, family values and just good old fashion common sense.  The ones that live middle of the road...enjoy nice things, but aren't spoiled.  The workers that know what they are actually talking about verses the management that makes no sense most days.  These are the people that I consider my true friends...the ones that I like to think have my back.  But I once again, watch what I say and do...they are a passionate group and will not hesitate to voice their opinions (or mine if they were given) so I am cautious I am never in a situation to be brought down with them if they decide to sink their own ship.

I hover around the outskirts of the different groups in my day to day life never fully committing to any one stance, belief, or even gossip session.  I watch my mouth for the words that I say and keep everyone at arms length.  That sounds very distant of me, but I actually find a great deal of satisfaction in all of this.  I keep things to myself, as I always have, while at the same time learning everyone else's ideas, secrets and opinions.  I stay neutral, and in the end everyone likes me.  I have friends quite literally in every click and every group in life.  Would any of them lay down in traffic for me...no.  Well maybe one or two of the righteous ones, but mostly, no.  That's ok though...I would never ask anyone to do that anyway.

Hopefully however, when my time comes...when my final ticket gets punched...there will be a lot of people remembering me fondly as a good friend that listened, laughed, loved and of course sang (a lot)

In the end, I hope to be a winner when the final votes are read!